Emptiness to think about the right things

It seems to me I make the same mistakes every year.

I get obsessed with something outside my university work. The first two years it was the online art groups I was part of and the commissions I was getting there. This year it was a faith crisis as to if Christianity is right for me, what i might have to give up, and if there is a denomination right for me (It’s been intense). And then I find I have no energy for my work and I’m doing next to nothing.

Forgive me if this sounds zen (I have been reading a lot religious writings) but I need to empty my mind first. It’s okay to have reading and viewing to unwind to. Even serious religious stuff. But when I am effectively studying it that is only bad for my art. I should be careful how I use my free time so it revialises me rather than drains me. i think fiction is a little better than non fiction here. But it’s not an absolute. And I think a little serious stuff can be good for keeping me feeling ground in my interests and happy, IF I don’t over do it. But it would also probably help a lot if I looked at more stuff, both fiction and non-fiction, that motivates, inspires, and most importantly, focases me on my artwork. As long as I don’t overdo it.

I feel a bit bad about dropping my heavy religious reading in the middle of a crisis. But I’ll have to live with it. I hope I can enjoy the lighter stuff.

One day I’ll get this balancing act right. I hope